Institute...

so tonight i was reading in the ensign...and i came across an article titled "making spiritual education a priority"...as i read it makes me think about my own experience and how much institute and spiritual education mean to me in my own life...wow what a blessing. i attended college for almost 3 years before ever going to institute...i never wanted to go alone so i just didnt go and i missed out on so much...but i cant focus on that but i can focus on the blessings that came when i finally decided to make the decision to begin going. It almost brings me to tears when i think about the eternal blessings that came from attending. I encourage every college age person to attend institute because i have never heard of anything bad coming from it, it has always been good. for me i gained the 2 biggest blessings in my whole life. Because i attended institute i met my best friend tommy. If i wouldnt have gone i would have never met him. looking back i know that heavenly father put him in my path. i was at a low point in my life. i felt so alone, i felt like i had no friends. Yes i decided on my own to go to institute but its not like i put myself out there and talked to people. i was shy and im not very out going so i would just sit there with brett and talk to each other. every week tommy would come and talk to us and be nice to us. just what i needed. a good friend to talk to. thats what we truly became. the best of friends, it got to the point where we saw each other everyday and i never knew at the beginning that tommy would become someone i love so much and someone that means so much to me. I dont know what i would do without him. He completes me and is my everything. even though he is so far from me i still feel so close to him as i drawer nearer to my savior and as i hear from him and his miracles as a missionary. its amazing how close we have become even though we have been so far from each other. Its like a different kind of closeness if that makes any sense at all. The next big blessing i recieved from attending institute is my answer to serve my mission. I would have never had the idea to even serve a mission if it werent for lessons heard in institute and honestly i dont think i would have been intune spiritually to recieve my answer to serve. what a great decision i made and something that will bless me for the rest of my life. i will forever be grateful for institute, my best friend and boyfriend tommy, and my mission. Im grateful for the reminder i had tonight of how important it is to gain education spiritually and thru-out our busy weeks. it keeps us strong and helps us feel close to god. even though my schedule doesnt always although me to go to institute i need to be better about studying and being close to my father in heaven because when i really think about it, nothing else really matters in life, what really matters is that i do what i need to now so that i can live with my father in heaven again one day...=)

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Finally blogging again...

its been too long and so much has happened...this is just for you ru...and im gonna try to be better since i know your gonna be checking up on me...ha ha...feel like i've been so busy lately and i just feel so tired but so many good things have happened...still missing my tommy like crazy but thats life and im learning that its going fast...i dont count the time but trying to work on my and how i can best improve before he comes home, staying super busy. life is good...last wednesday got to watch my little baby sister caitie graduation...felt so good to be there since i wasnt able to be there for bryces due to my mission. brought back so many memories of my days at chaffey and my own graduation..makes me feel so old...ha ha...was also so proud of baby sister court who got to be in ivy chain. they let the jr girls who got the top grades in the school hold this ivy on the field during the graduation...it was a nice night after we just had the family over to eat...i was so spoiled...tommys family wanted me to go with them to az to see the first born grandbaby (tommy's older brother edward and wife renelle just had baby kyleigh 3 weeks ago 2day...shes so beautiful and it makes me so excited to have my own baby one day. I wanted to be at cait's graduation but i always wanted to go with them. they spoiled me, came to caitie's graduation then we headed to arizona. had a really good time with the family over there and loved seeing the baby. went swimming, shopping, zhalia's birthday party, church, good food, watching movies together, and my favorite part was the family meeting. could feel the spirit so strong...great to be together. i only have one more week of work and im actually a little sad for the summer to come. i love my kids and i love what i do. i feel so blessed....friday was lisa's b-day (second mom) we took her out to dinner and then went to the temple. felt so good to be in the house of the lord. felt so peaceful and it was much needed in my life. i have felt so weak lately like i need to be better. I have had a quote in my head for the last few weeks by president Uchtdorf..."Remember the heavens will not be filled with those who never made mistakes but with those who recognized that they were off course and who corrected their ways to get back in the light of gospel truths." ...love this quote and it has helped me realize that really its up to us to get back on track when we feel off. This was a great sunday for me...felt the spirit so strong and had the chance to bear my testimony in church...was reminded of my mission, its amazing that it still brings me to tears and i miss it so much...im just so grateful i had the chance to serve cause its helped me in so many ways i know it...it has prepared me for my future. was able to go to ruby's baby blessing today. was so nice to be with fia and ruby again. it felt like old times in high school. miss them both...i feel behind...the only one not married and no kids...in due time..ha ha...it was nice to catch up though and baby is beautiful....glad u could be there...well thats my week...gotta go get some stuff done...i'm truly so blessed and life is great...=)