just need to vent...

today was one of those days...i try to be positive on here but some days are hard and just suck...so before work i was having some issues but i got thru them...then work it was so hot and i had to work longer hours cause the kids got out of school early...and it was just long and hard and the kids were not listening good...and we had to be outside alot even though it was hot and it was just one of those days...then i came home just feeling crappy...and alone in away...tommys so close to being home and i cant wait...thankfully i was able to talk to tiffany and she just made me feel so much better...im so thankful to have good friends that can just cheer u up when ur down...=)i dont feel that bad right now so i guess thats a positive thing...

My Name Tag...

So tonight for fhe mom talked/read a story from the ensign about a missionary and his name tag...she asked me and brett to reflect on our name tag and what it meant to us. oh my gosh...i can remember before i went on my mission a good friend of mine telling me she was jealous i got to wear a name tag with jesus christs name on me each and everyday and to never take it for grantid. I remember thinking ok yeah. But i never really knew what she meant until i now long for that sometimes. I miss my mission so much some days. I miss the great joy i felt, I miss the people i met that became my family. I miss represently my savior each and everyday. I miss it and im just so grateful for it. I think how lucky i am cause everyone doesn't get to represent there savior the way i got to. I can remember times on my mission when i would think something, or want to do something, and then i would stop myself because i would remember who i was representing. It was such a good reminder and i hope i can continue to remember that and strive to be that way even though i dont physically have his name on me. I hope i can always remember this quote and live up to it... "Live your life so that those who know you, but don't know Him, will want to know Him, because they know you."

some times it takes time to see the fruits of our labors...

What a blessing today i had the opportunity to witness a baptism. And such a special one to me. last week i got a text from kristina saying she would be baptized this sunday and she even asked me to give a talk. I have been so emotional all week as i think and ponder how exciting this is. you may wonder why this is so so so special to me. Dec 26th 2009 i came in contact with kristina in new jersey on my mission. She was a media referral and we got a text message to take her a book of mormon. I had the great privilege of being able to share the gospel with her on my mission and watch her grow. after i came home from my mission she still was not baptized yet but i always knew kristina knew the church was true. a few months after i came home i found out kristina was moving to rancho cali to live with her bf. I was excited for her to live so close to me. Then a few months later i found out they got married and then to be able to witness her baptism today was just so so special to me. I am so grateful i got to be apart of it. it was so funny cause she asked me to give a talk and i was crying so hard at the beginning i couldnt even speak. its amazing how the spirit and really just take over sometimes. Its amazing how things can touch ur heart so deep and just bring that joy that means so so much in life. The gospel is true and im so glad to have it bles my life. I so grateful to see how it can change other peoples lifes as well and make them so so happy.