Bitter Sweet....

Today was a good sunday...dads not in the bishopric anymore...hes on the high counsel over missionary work...i know he will do good at it and work hard..and im sure it will be nice to sit with my mom at church at least hopefully...so today my good friend Beca Gutierrez gave her farewell talk for her mission. I cant believe shes really going...Im gonna miss her so much..she has been such a good friend to me and shes very special to me, at the same time I'm so grateful for her example and willingness to serve and im just so grateful for her growth and testimony. I's just so proud of her. She will do great things. She mentioned in her talk how we are very similar in the way we got the answer to serve a mission. Like we both didnt want to go, but we put away our wants and realized that the lords plan for us was grateful and we went and did as he asked us to. I loved as she shared her experience of prayer and finding answers in the scriptures. it brought back all the memories i had when i knew i was suppose to go...i cried alot...her testimony was strong and her story was inspiring and i just was thinking about all the good memories i have with her and just how very much im gonna miss her. I feel blessed to have great friends like beca...=)

grandma and grandpa miller

highlight of this weekend was def. seeing the grandparents. we went to their ward in phelan to hear them speak and it was so nice. I guess my grandma miller is very scared to speak and church and my dad said she has only done it 4 times in her whole life so we took the opportunity to hear her. she spoke about how she gained her testimony and the joys of being a grandparent. it made me grateful to have been brought up in a strong family and even more grateful to realize that my dads side of the family has so many strong active members for me to look up to. in my grandpas talk he shared that out of 21 grandchildren i think 11 have served missions. what great examples we had to follow. I am so grateful. after wards we took a few pictures and got a pretty funny one of my dad and unlce larry. hopefully the cousins and family check this one out cause im sure they would love it..ha ha...im so grateful for all the wonderful memories i have of my grandparents growing up and im glad that for part of my life they lived so close and we were able to see them so regularly. I feel lucky to have also had a very close bond with my great grandfather who would come over alot growing up as well. I remember going to church with them and having sunday dinners with them.

Fun Friday...ha ha

yesterday was such a long day...went from job interview to work to job interview then took a test for a job then work again and after met up with the family for a bike ride on a really fun trail in alta loma...loved it..the weather was so nice and it was fun to be together...(sad we didnt take any pics...) finished it off eatting together...i love my family and i love spending time with each other...I really enjoy riding bikes too...its just something i have learned to love in the last months..I really dont like going up big hills though...im not that in shape yet. maybe one day..i swear my dad almost killed us at the end of our bike ride yesterday. made us go up hill..i was dying but i was so proud at the end to say..wow i did it and i didnt even have to take a break...ha ha...about these interviews...i feel so blessed to actually have some job interviews. I have applied for many over the last year in hopes of getting something with more hours so i dont have to have so many part time jobs. its just so hard these days. I just honestly believe everything happens for a reason and its all meant to be the way it goes. if heavenly father wants me to get another job i will. I just feel blessed to have the jobs i do at this time. life is good...=)

Life is good...

This week end was a good one...love spending time with the family...sat went to a baseball game with the singles branch...it was whatever...a little boring to me...but we still made it fun...sunday church, had dinner with the mahinas...feels like its been forever and loved our fhe lesson from cassy about desire...got me thinking about the things that matter most...monday i am back in college...yep its been like 3 years and im finally back at it...only 1 class i decided i wanted to ease myself into it but i feel so good about it and im so super proud of myself...(im not a fan of school...ha ha) its fun cause me and caitie are taking a class at the same time so we can carpool and stuff so it makes it nice...and today i got the best news ever...i found out the exact day and time my tommy is coming home..this means its pretty close...dec 15th...i dont have too much longer to wait and im so excited about that...=) life is already great i just cant wait for it to get even better with him around...

just need to vent...

today was one of those days...i try to be positive on here but some days are hard and just suck...so before work i was having some issues but i got thru them...then work it was so hot and i had to work longer hours cause the kids got out of school early...and it was just long and hard and the kids were not listening good...and we had to be outside alot even though it was hot and it was just one of those days...then i came home just feeling crappy...and alone in away...tommys so close to being home and i cant wait...thankfully i was able to talk to tiffany and she just made me feel so much better...im so thankful to have good friends that can just cheer u up when ur down...=)i dont feel that bad right now so i guess thats a positive thing...

My Name Tag...

So tonight for fhe mom talked/read a story from the ensign about a missionary and his name tag...she asked me and brett to reflect on our name tag and what it meant to us. oh my gosh...i can remember before i went on my mission a good friend of mine telling me she was jealous i got to wear a name tag with jesus christs name on me each and everyday and to never take it for grantid. I remember thinking ok yeah. But i never really knew what she meant until i now long for that sometimes. I miss my mission so much some days. I miss the great joy i felt, I miss the people i met that became my family. I miss represently my savior each and everyday. I miss it and im just so grateful for it. I think how lucky i am cause everyone doesn't get to represent there savior the way i got to. I can remember times on my mission when i would think something, or want to do something, and then i would stop myself because i would remember who i was representing. It was such a good reminder and i hope i can continue to remember that and strive to be that way even though i dont physically have his name on me. I hope i can always remember this quote and live up to it... "Live your life so that those who know you, but don't know Him, will want to know Him, because they know you."

some times it takes time to see the fruits of our labors...

What a blessing today i had the opportunity to witness a baptism. And such a special one to me. last week i got a text from kristina saying she would be baptized this sunday and she even asked me to give a talk. I have been so emotional all week as i think and ponder how exciting this is. you may wonder why this is so so so special to me. Dec 26th 2009 i came in contact with kristina in new jersey on my mission. She was a media referral and we got a text message to take her a book of mormon. I had the great privilege of being able to share the gospel with her on my mission and watch her grow. after i came home from my mission she still was not baptized yet but i always knew kristina knew the church was true. a few months after i came home i found out kristina was moving to rancho cali to live with her bf. I was excited for her to live so close to me. Then a few months later i found out they got married and then to be able to witness her baptism today was just so so special to me. I am so grateful i got to be apart of it. it was so funny cause she asked me to give a talk and i was crying so hard at the beginning i couldnt even speak. its amazing how the spirit and really just take over sometimes. Its amazing how things can touch ur heart so deep and just bring that joy that means so so much in life. The gospel is true and im so glad to have it bles my life. I so grateful to see how it can change other peoples lifes as well and make them so so happy.